By Cynthia Aralu

Hello everyone! Pray the Rosary.

It has been a while and to not run the risk of sounding like a broken record, how about I do not apologize for being away.

I have done an end of the year evaluation since 2020, I believe. So, I felt it customary to continue it this year.

This year has gone by pretty quick, that when I try to look back on the events of the year, it feels almost like yesterday that the year began, and yet quite deliciously contrary, the density of my memories lie squarely on my mind, like a thickly condensed flashback which I have a good grasp of in its intricateness.

I prayed a lot this year, more than I have ever done in my entire life, without my mother prompting me to “Come, let us pray”. I actually pursued God this year. How incredibly! I remember when the days to my time in London was starting to run out, just before I was to travel to Canada, I had mentioned to a colleague of mine, that if I arrived in Canada, with my mom around, I would feel obligated to attend mass out of a deference to her and to keep the peace, in her heart and in the house. But, I did wish that I felt a desire to go to mass, not just out of obligation to her. And how it would make everything easier. Fast forward to actually coming here and having an encounter with God which just filled my heart with a fire, a longing and a desire for God, that I went to confession last year, for the first time in 4 years, and strove after God from that time on. God is great! He hears the desires of my heart! He hears the words I speak! He knows me through and through, more than I can ever know myself and loves me completely. I am comfortable telling Him to help me because I am helpless most times, and He really does reach out and set me aright, even when I do not use those specific words.

I am here right now, completely imperfect, yet my mind reminds me that my God once told me that He salivates in the way I love. That made me happy at first, then shook me, because I know me. So, He must see so much good in me, and there is hope for me. I really just want to please Him, that I feel disappointed when I cannot do some things I wish I could do. I am praying always that God is patient with me because of my weaknesses, as I navigate all of this and I can finally drop all of the weight which I hate, but I always take great comfort and hide in His love. It is the safest I will ever be ever. So, I will cast my arms around Him, although I cannot contain His presence, and He will fill me always with His goodness.

For anyone wanting to gain a better understanding of the faith, you can check out Ascension Presents on YouTube for short videos. I hope God ignites that passion in your heart for Him too.

To everyone reading this, thank you for finding my blog, thank you for staying. I pray that God blooms the seed planted already in your hearts and you rejoice always in the Lord, so that your joy may be complete!

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Pray the Rosary. Let it be, until we meet again or “Ka ọ dị” as it is said in Igbo.